by Linda M. Crate
i laid my soul
naked
and bare before you,
you shrank away
as if i were disgusting; evil
dead flower
weighing down your
rain drops—
i closed inward on myself in
seas of introspection
wondered what was wrong with me?
again i wasn't good enough,
but i couldn't understand why
if God made us all in his image
why would so many
shun away
the intricacies of my mind?
i think the answer lays in that i'm
more complex than i look,
and i'm more than
just that pretty face they fawn over
in photographs;
the fact that i'm a living, breathing
soul with something to say
frightens and bewilders
i only want to change the world in a good way,
but you merely live for sex—
you talk like a scholar, but you are but
a mere instrument of lust
whose strings are pulled taut by
primal desires who in and of themselves are
beautiful; yet the way you abuse them
they become something ugly, evil
causing beauty to fold inward on itself to escape
the parasites of your lust.
As one of my characters says in Noah's Daughters..."it a use thing, like you use a can opener. Very common in the 60's but I was smart enough to resist.
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